Hello. I’m not perfect.

Hey there. My name is Nikka Gabrielle and welcome to my new blog. This is something that I've been wanting to do for the longest time. But just like the time before I launched my YouTube channel, I hesitated because I always thought to myself, "What will people think of me?"

Fact #1: I worry too much about everything. 

Growing up I was always conscious about the way I talked, the way I ate, the way I dressed. Today I carry those same things with me along with this never ending thought of, "Someone's judging me." I thought I stopped being this person when I finally came out about my YouTube channel. I thought that by putting myself out there, I would instantly be carefree. Instead I constantly compared myself to other bigger and more popular creators and tried to be just like them. I thought that if my content looked just like theirs, I would be just as successful.

Surprise. Surprise. I was wrong. 

I recently befriended this stunning model, Amélie Tremblay. She was beautiful and flawless. I also noticed her hilarious and very goofy personality. I would watch her cracking jokes, being silly, and constantly smiling. She was genuinely happy. Amélie reminded me how important it was to be ourselves. She embraced her silly and weird personality and didn't try to act any other way. And she loved herself for it.

Every time I uploaded one of those "similar" videos, it didn't feel right. I realized, I'm not perfect. So why do I spend every breathing moment pretending I'm trying to be? I really could care less about what other people think of me. Especially if they're an irrelevant person to my life. It's so easy to get wrapped up and try to form to people's expectations of us. And to be completely honest, I'm tired of it.

So again, welcome to my blog. From my deepest thoughts to my random ideas, this is a place where you'll get to see what's really going in my head and watch me grow. I can't wait to really come out of my shell and share with you who I really am. I don't plan on making my life or this blog seem too perfect. I plan on making things me. 

Shoutout to my beautiful friend Amelie. Thank you for inspiring me to write this as my first post.