My Health Journey
Since I’ve graduated college, I’ve gained a few pounds and inches. I’ve had family make rumors of why I gained wait and my closest friends say to my face, “Yeah, you’ve gotten bigger.” What a lot of people don’t know is that I’ve been through hell and back mentally that it took a complete toll on me physically.
In 2014, I went through the biggest change in my life. It’s a bit of long story of how I reached rock bottom. I was struggling in school trying to figure out my career and my relationships around me were falling apart. I was stressed all the time. I hardly ate. I could not sleep. To keep me going, the only thing I consumed was coffee. And let me tell you, I never drink coffee.
I was the skinniest I ever was. I ranged from 95-100 pounds at the time. I was smaller than a size 00 in women’s and had to shop in the kids section to find bottoms that fit me properly. I remember attending a family dinner and eating nothing but a small serving of soup and one pice of tofu. Another time, I collapsed at my university’s gym because even the lightest workout exhausted me.
Only one of my best friends saw how bad I was. I knew what I was doing to myself was worrying her. But I didn’t want the help. She never forced me to eat. She never forced me to get help. She patiently looked out for me during that time just to make sure I was… well, functioning.
I was a mess.
But funny enough, I received more compliments than ever before. “You look amazing.” “How did you loose all the weight?” As much as those words would flatter anyone else, little did everyone know:
I was depressed, I was hurting, and I was sick.
Flash forward to today, luckily I’m a lot better. It took a lot of self help and a mental reset to show how my actions were ruining my life. I’ve rebuilt my relationship with food and gained about 15 pounds. I’m definitely a bit thicker than I was before, but hey. I’m definitely in a much better place.
As many of you know, I’m currently on a health journey. I have been trying to workout more, eat better, and sleep at a decent hour. I don’t do all this because I feel “overweight” or “fat” but it’s because I love myself enough to want to constantly improve myself.
I know my body isn’t perfect. I’m short. My face is pretty round. You can clearly see my double chin in certain angles. My waist has gained a few inches. My arms are flabbier. My legs are thicker. My thighs rub together all the time. I always was a fairly tiny person. I stand at 5 feet tall. Small but happy.
I’m so blessed to have a body that allows me to simply sit, stand and even walk. I can finally look at myself in the mirror and reflect back at how far I’ve come as a person. I couldn’t be more thankful for the body I have. #TogetherWeAreTrue
Special thank you to True and Co for gifting me your products and selecting me for this campaign.
